i was the one who dragged you thousand miles away and back in a blink | i left you sitting around alone in your head with nothing to think | i've seen you desperate, i felt your anger the same time you couldn't believe anyone could feel the same way, i felt your fear | can you see me still, or you just expect me to be standing still right there - where you left me? | oh please, make me change - i've heard you beg, but i can't take this back | i can't take you back | i've seen you starring at me, but you couldn't see a thing - because you never got close enough to me | i watched you melting sun and hiding in sunday skies | i watched you pushing harder, ive seen you falling under weight of your fantasies | i watched them carrying you back home and been waiting there without saying a thing | i watched you smashing the doors, i've seen you hitting the floor - erasing, ignoring, refusing | i've heard all your stories and now i watch you wondering if this is one of them, if i am one of them | i am your violence, i am your fear and your frightened deathwish | i am your will to conquer and your will to love | no living man can keep a secret which a dead man may have already told me
Track Name: II.
i beg you cold wind to address my apology to the place where they wait for me, to the land on which i have died, and tell them that i will elsewhere never live again | and forgive me for i won't return but i became a stranger to my once so called home and strangers have to be left alone and promise me you will never try to look a stranger in the eye | and it seems like these steps i take i already remember as if everything i pass by i've already left behind | as one with my heartbeat i swing, acting surprised like that morning about myself | if this is there supposed to be my last night i swear there i'll be until mornings dawn with my eyes closed, i'll swallow every single word i know | and when the last moment is gone i'll stop a step far from eternity | and in a hindsight revive me in every world we ever lived | and in the last step replace all of my words with pure silence and let silence define me | let nothing be me | nothing is me, nothing is clarity
Track Name: III.
we rejected our crazy dreams then, furious broken-hearted, but in their wake every other scheme seemed so lackluster, every other hope half-hearted, and so one by one we returned to burn and sore - we returned to burn and sore again | when the warmth is gone, all you dream of is some sleep | when we find no home, we make home from these streets | i never thought i'd feel so alone in such a crowded room, i never thought i'd feel so crowded when i'm alone | and all these blinding streetlights are making me dreamless, as i'm becoming one with concrete and glass, i am fearless | and with my fears i disappear | i'm loosing myself, for a moment of silence i'd give it all, as i drown in liquor | and as all the colors fade to grey, i paint myself black, because i choose to be no one rather than someone else | i chose to be no one rather than anyone else | as i'm trying to forget i find myself in the most passionate dance, hand in hand with the memory of myself | and i dance down the street, knocking on the doors | to find a warm bed to sleep, while my home doesn't seem to know me | my home doesn't seem to know me anymore
Track Name: IV.
we shall love all those smoked-grey skies, and love all those star drawn pictures | and raise our sight high to reach them, let our hearts forget our home - dead battlefields | cause i feel that soon were over, our end is nigh | and in all its beauty we're blessed to witness our thrive in a great downfall - we burn alive | and i swear my friend that we're not brought here to suffer, and all your pain once will be over | so kiss these life-drawn scars and look straight in her deep blue eyes | raise your voice above the sorrow and leave this world to die tomorrow | let's admire the worn hands of the old and leave our shoulders for the heads of the youth | and live - lie, rob and kill
On their gut-wrenching debut album "Let Pain Be Your Guide," screamo revivalists Portrayal of Guilt demonstrate their transcendent potential, beyond a shadow of a doubt, in a blinding flash. Bandcamp Album of the Day Nov 30, 2018